What was her reward?

For the sake of anonymity, we will call this woman "Unidentified". She is someone who once and may still believe that she is special because she has received an abundance of male attention. In the distant past, she made a post stating that she cannot help it that all of these men want her and she cannot help it that the man [another woman] want, wants her too. In this same post she said that [they] keep trying to say that the only reason men want her is because she's "going", unidentified believed that this attention was being given because she was pretty. The same mentality that many women have today, a man is giving them attention because of being beautiful, looking good, and because she’s “that girl”. Anybody on the opposing side of this is a hater, mad, and jealous.

At this time of this post, unidentified was 20 years old, she's in her early 30s now. She already had 2 kids in close age by two different men/boys. The year before this post, she also posted a video of herself "playing around", dancing like a stripper. “Playing” but very obvious that she had skills in that department. I used to be young. I used to be in high school and college. I’ve been around people at that age who were having sex in middle school. This behavior and the way her life played out, I do believe that molestation could’ve taken place at some point in her life. Some grown man more than likely had his way with her and sex is all she’s ever really known, but that is something we'll get into another time.

She ended up having 3 kids all together, with the last child being born at the age of 22... by a third man/boy. Less than 5 months after this child was born, she was involved with another man and allowing their videos to be recorded and posted on the internet. Somebody we'll call Anonymous.

Anonymous is a man who uses women for his own financial gain by posting explicit videos online. He was doing this prior to getting with unidentified and she seemingly went along with it because she believed that this was love. She was his "girlfriend", being taken on the trips, getting posted online, being gifted with expensive things. There was an old Instagram live from when they were still together where she said that she knew her spot was secure.

She believed that he was not going to find anybody that loves and cares about him in the way she [does]. Less than 5 years later, the same bed she was saying that in, on his Instagram page, he has two other women in it with the same comforter set. He ended up having a child with another woman and had a post up showing that he bought the mother of that child a brand-new car as a thank you for holding it down. It's worth noting that while unidentified and other women are spread all over the internet, he keeps the identity of this woman private. They've been broken up and the same things she was willing to do, he has a steady rotation of women who are willing to do the exact same thing.

This was not a man who ever had intentions on loving her, or any woman for that matter. She was not special, sought out and chosen because she was the "better woman". She was chosen because she fit what he wanted and that was to use her experience for his own gain. She was only as valuable to him, and the men before and after him, as long as she was willing to go along without complaint.

In the midst of me collecting this information, I saw a lot of her more recent posts where she is constantly complaining about how she gets treated with men. Lot of people have ulterior motives, she feels like she's always being used to make a man "better" for the next woman. One minute she is saying that she's about to get a man and within the same month, she's saying she's done with relationships. She has also been very persistent in saying that she wants to be the ONLY one, and the men that deal with her usually have their hands in other women's pockets.

And mind you, this is the same woman who once said that she can't help it that "all of these men want her". Out of all the men... who actually cared about and loved her? Out of all of the men... each of them just sought and continue to seek to use her for their own pleasures. Nothing more and nothing less.

What is the reward here?

And of course we have to talk about the videos. Some people can do dirt and only those around them know the truth about what their past looks like. Lot of people do dirt in one city or state and then get a "fresh start" someplace else where their deeds are unknown. Unidentified cannot do this because her deeds are easily found on the internet, and her name has been permanently tainted. Their community was in an uproar because of where they chose to record some of their videos. Elders within their hometown publicly spoke out about them saying that people need to start having more respect for themselves, and they are tired of the community being used as a waste dump. Did this stop or deter them? Did this aspire a change of behavior? no

When I saw that she has three kids, and with some being boys[... this opens up a very nasty can of worms that will be talked about too], I wondered what comes up when her name gets searched because, how well are these things hidden? They're not. Not only that, but there was also a gossip forum that came up where a commentator used her by first and last name as an example of degeneracy within black women. In this comment, he noted the illegitimacy rate and referenced the same video that caused uproar, stating that she was a mother of 3 doing this.

While she was once someone who believed that she was special because she was "highly favored" with men, the only thing that she got for it was being used, lied to, manipulated, and disrespected. There was no reward.

And something to take note of from this situation. Not knowing what goes on behind closed doors in a lot of men's choosing of women, as shown with my situation, end up tearing yourself a part believing that