Healing Chamber Writings:

"Healing Chamber" is the period of time where healing and mental transformation first started taking place. This is the period of time where I had to unlearn the foolishness of the world and started being taught by God, with my mind expanding ever since. These are the things that were written during that time, all of it was wrote in 2023.

A few lessons learned prior to starting the YouTube videos:

1. Know yourself first... who you are at your core, not what you got influenced to be by the world and social media.

- without knowing myself, I didn't see my real value. I didn't understand how a man and WHY a man would want me yet alone love me.

* I also didn't know that it's different type of men and women.

--->Knowing yourself and your match/ what's best for you and WAIT for that, instead of changing yourself or trying to change a man because you THINK you like him

2. Pastor preaches about the importance of taking your time with someone and making sure you're making the RIGHT investment.

- Right investment is the WHAT and the WHO. Anything that is not that is guaranteed misery and regret.

3. Learned how much damage the wrong man can cause.

- It's nothing to find a man that "likes" something about you, it's not too many men who're actually capable of or interested in loving you.

---> Can and will end up dying spiritually, mentally, and emotionally in the hands of the wrong man... and sometimes unfortunately, physically.

4. No idea what love was until God. What it looks like, how it felt, the type of woman you should be in order to get the type of man who can actually give it. Love to the world is huge "romantic" and public gestures that involves money and gifts. Love to the world is sex.

Not knowing who I was or what love was, I looked for love and acceptance in the wrong places and came across some a-holes. I've always focused on my character and bettering myself in that department. At a young age, God gave me enough knowledge for me to know that I wanted to be loved for my mind. Not my body, not my looks, and not sex. Dealing with boys and men, I received nothing but criticism and was told/ made to feel like I wasn't good enough.

I had some criticize my body when I was skinnier and not yet developed, tellling me that my butt was too small and I needed to do some squats. Had some telling me that I needed to do something different to my hair, dress better, and that I am just "too boring". (Most of these comments came from one person). A lot of men are only looking to use and exploit women, and they cannot do that if you're "Miss Goody Two Shoes." They encourage and try manipulating you to be loose because it makes it easier for them. I've also dealt with men who're loose and lust filled. They'd try convincing me that I was crazy, insecure, and too jealous when I'd call them out on their behavior.

Only 26 [at the time], I never had a boyfriend and through God's grace I now understand that he protected me before I had the knowledge to do it on my own! But at the same time, back then I didn't know that it was God saving me, I just knew that I never got the things that I wanted and chalked it up to mean that something was wrong with me.

Discussing Past Issues: Healing

Witnessed how "privileged" whorish women got treated in comparison to me, by men who CLAIMED to have liked me. There was a severe crack in my foundation that kept getting worse as time went on. I tried repairing myself, but my solution was other people who couldn't do anything but inflict more damage. I was hurt, confused, and getting more and more insecure as the days went by.

I had an idea of what I wanted, I had a more growing understanding of what I didn't want, but following behind the world, I tried to get involved with men I had no business. I trusted and confided in the wrong people and that led to constantly being told that I was the problem. I was too influenced and trying to fit into the world and they were leading me down the wrong path. Encouraging me to have fun and use men because that's all they really know how to do. I didn't know what love was, what a good woman really is, yet alone a good man. I've only ever really known "unfit" men aka good for nothing but to be able to say you have a man and have sex.

Written August 15th, 2023

Majority of the world has placed entirely too much stock on physical attraction and sex. Folks act like sex is everything and that a man wanting sex from a woman, or just being physically attracted, is a trophy winning accomplishment. I really appreciate how my Pastor speaks on any decent man with a brain is going to prefer PEACE over sex. Being one of a million women with good looks and a decent body shouldn't be enough to get a woman through the door and it surely shouldn't be enough to keep a woman around.

Men speak about it all the time how they use most women for sex and to keep them company but would give anything to find a decent woman that genuinely loves them. If and/or when they find that woman, they don't want to lose her. Society and watching other people's lives, we've [women] have been misled into thinking that men don't have feelings, don't appreciate good, and will do you dirty. We've learned this lie because it is far more people who're together for the wrong reasons and their decisions in life reflect that misery and regret.

Everybody is not God's child. Every couple was not brought together by God. Everybody who stood at the alter saying, "I do", was not there because of love. The mistakes of the foolish do not determine truth.

Society has also led us to believe that the type of woman a man thirsts over and has sex with is their preference, and the type that they'd marry is just what gets settled for because she's "boring" and "safe". While the reasonings for why people are together vary and some reasons are not always good, being safe and boring also means PEACE. Not the watered down, derogatory spin that people have put on it to make themselves feel better.